Missing Mercy
Annie and Eddie are adjusting to life after losing Mercy. Each cat grieves in their own way just as each one of us grieves in our own way. There is no timeline or rule to follow. Sadness rolls like waves and crashes onto us. We have no choice but to let it wash over us.
Mercy was curled up in his bed with his little paws crossed. No sign of struggle or pain. It seemed he went to sleep. We made sure Annie and Eddie both understood. We gave them time to come and check out Mercy’s body on their own.
Annie came near and pressed her nose against Mercy’s head. She slowly backed away and sat down. She sat still for a few minutes. Then she moved a little further away and sat down again. Eddie did not come near to Mercy’s body. He watched Annie. Then he moved out into the sunroom and climbed up to the back o the sofa looked out the window.
Spending Time Close To US
When we returned from the veterinary clinic, I went to work in the office. Keeping busy, trying to go through the day. Paul worked on projects around the house.
I didn’t even realize that Annie and Eddie has come into the office and curled up together in one of their tents. I know we often read into the emotional life of animals, and we can never truly know what they are thinking, but Annie and Eddie were sad.
Extra Hugs and Love
We are all doing our best to move through the days without Mercy. Our daily routine had evolved into his twice a day med times along with lots of love and hugs.
As you know all too well, if you have lost a cat, we see him out of the corner of our eyes. We think we hear his meow. When you wake up in the morning, there is that instant you forget he is gone. Then it punches you in the gut.
The next morning, Eddie ran to the sunroom. He went straight to Mercy’s heated bed. We upgraded Mercy’s thinking circle in December to make sure he had an extra soft and warm place to rest. We haven’t had the strength to clear Mercy’s fur from the bed. It seemed Eddie, like us, might have forgotten in the early morning that Mercy was no longer here. He was missing Mercy.
A couple days ago, while we were all sitting in the sunroom, Eddie walked over and climbed into Mercy’s bed. Eddie had never gotten into this bed before. We like to think he finds some comfort there.
Thank you for all your kind messages and comments. Your words and thoughtfulness help to life our spirits during this difficult time. Thank you for loving Mercy too.